Monday, December 3, 2007

Connotations

I remember once my brother bought a Moon Crab as a pet. It was supposed to be this exotic pet that business executives kept in their office. A little piece of a far off vacation I guess. But then my brother's Moon Crab got some disease and it's limbs just started falling off. There was no blood or anything, they just fell off, and the thing would just keep on going like nothing happened. Until eventually it died, or we took it back...I can't remember.

It was an odd thing to see that crab's legs fall off like that. It was unexpected. Colorful, vibrant things are not supposed to have such horrific things happen to them. There should be no association with things that are beautiful and bright with death and deformity. It was an odd association to make but at the time I did.

I remember other odd associations I made throughout my life. Most of them make no sense from an outside perspective but to me they do. For instance the word "week" and the amount of time that one thinks of as a "week" I have for some reason associated with a dime. The idea of a month, I have associated with the Shell Gasoline Logo. I don't know but something about that shell just fits with the idea of a "month". Now, none of these associations are real, they're just something my mind does for some reason. I think they come from deep within my brain somewhere from my childhood. Some of them do make some sense though, like the idea of a "year" I have always seen as an ear in my mind. Probably because the first time I heard of the notion of a year, I thought it sounded like the word "ear".

But then some just make absolutely no sense whatsoever like the word "stupid", for as long as I can remember I have associated with a stained glass version of a trophy I got for getting 3rd place in a frog jumping contest in Hannibal, Missouri in 1988. The word "idiot" I associate with this figure I had when I was little of this crazy looking red-skinned Indian, which again makes no sense at all.

So where do these abstract associations originate from? Are they just left over brain currents from when my brain couldn't actually make a real connection to the material world? And why do I only make these connections to notions of time and childish insults? And why so few?

2 comments:

Unknown said...

you're actually insane.

The Peddler said...

Yea I thought this post was a little weird.